Just to warn you, I really don’t have a common thread, just a lot of thought “bits and pieces.”
In Bible study, as we sent off a couple of leaders who are moving, they were talking about how our pastor has been a spiritual father for them and how he changed their lives. In explanation, our pastor talked about the importance of having a mentor or spiritual parent … What does this have to do with my mom you ask?
Well, I have never needed a “spiritual mother” – well, I have, but God has blessed me with a spiritual and biological mother all wrapped up into one. When all my friends were inconsistent, my mom has been consistent. She has always listened, always understood, and always encouraged. Sometimes, yes, she had to speak truth that wasn’t what I wanted to hear – but my mom has been my true friend. She has been a true mentor – not only leading by words, but by example. I think my mom is the only one who can still be in a hospital bed and encourage ME to have faith. We believe that God will heal her, and we wait in anticipation for Him to work wonders on our behalf.
Today Psalm 27:13-14 popped in my head: “I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.” We wait for the Lord to show His goodness. He is mighty, and He is able. Sometimes I am so impatient. I want this amyloidosis to go away, and I want my mom to be completely restored – NOW. But we wait for God’s perfect timing.
Going along with the passage from Luke 8, my friend pointed out to me that Jesus made the man with the sick daughter wait. It seems like Jesus got distracted and cared more about the woman tugging on his cloak than he did a twelve year old little girl. But Jesus didn’t. He had perfect timing. In HIS timing, the little girl was healed. So, even though this process seems to be taking a really long time, I know Jesus hasn’t gotten distracted or forgotten. I told God today I wasn’t going to stop praying and believing until we see my mom healed (I’m sure that is many of your prayers as well).
Faith is being sure of what we hope for and confident of what we do not see. I know that I have now quoted this verse 3 times, but I cling to the promise of hope in it more than ever – and with new understanding
As my mom was enduring pain this weekend, I was reminded that her present sufferings aren’t worth comparing to the glory that will be revealed – which, of course, is easy for me to say since I’m not the one in pain. But then I envisioned my mom standing in heaven with a big fluffy purple robe on and 12 crowns stacked on her head all trying to balance – standing in the glory that was given to her from God. Her life is a testimony, and God wants to talk to as many people as He can through her illness because she is faithful to walk through it and willing to trust His heart. God doesn’t let any bad happen without having good in mind; it goes against His character – which is one of the many reasons, I might add, that He is so cool.
We wait for healing – believing in the Healer. I realize that I covered about 20 different topics in one journal entry, but I’ve had so many scattered thoughts lately. We trust in the Lion of Judah – the Lamb that was slain. He is worthy to receive all glory and power. He is the Alpha and the Omega. He is the King of Kings and Prince of Peace.
He is faithful – He can NEVER disown himself.
